Category Archives: Personal Experience

What is Fear?

My worst fear in life is failure. Fear is more abstract to me and it’s more internal than external. I think anything can be overcome, especially fear, and that I, and everybody else, can always attain the impossible. I think my fear is more abstract because of the lives we live, but also how my philosophy of life is. First, our culture is so fast-paced and complex that most things people feel are abstract. If all everybody felt was simple and single-sided then life would be simple and boring, abstract feeling outside of our survival instincts are necessary for a thriving community and culture.

My fear drawn in aliens.

Here are my ideas for drawings for this project. I really like all three of them though and might do them all.

Spiders crawling toward a bed from all directions. Millions of them.

This is my fear of being abducted my aliens. It's not that I'm scared of what would happen or what I would see, it's much more childish than that. From watching sci fi movies with my dad.

My drawings of a small man surrounded by rubbish and barren land. His shadow is extremely exaggeratedly long.

An artist on Drawing Center’s Viewing Program who’s work relates to me is Sarah Hardesty. Her installation art reminds me of falling, and how anything at anytime can collapse on you. Your dreams could fall away at any moment and that thought scares me.

 

The Negation of Fear Wood, gesso, string 2010 Dimensions variable

"If All Else Fails" Wood (from original Maxon Mills building construction), string 2009 Dimensions variable

"In What Direction Wood" acrylic, thread 2009 Dimensions variable

Artist Statement
I am interested in pulling things together amongst some kind of aftermath, with a subtle sense of urgency and responding to the environment with optimism amidst potentially destructive circumstances. Or creating a situation that anticipates but alleviates the potential for damage. Using raw materials that are often site specific (wood, glass), found objects that convey playfulness, and the immediacy of wall drawing, I hope to initiate a response to feelings of destruction, fear, and anxiety within a framework of self-protection, control, and certainty.

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Let Me Share With You Something

Spring break is here and unlike most college students loaded with lust, cash, and drugs; I am stuck working my ass off in my hometown. Although I tell myself this is for the better in the long run, I’m starting to realize that college is the only time I will get to be self indulgent. After that I’ll (hopefully) have a carrer and I won’t be able to afford taking a week long trip to a tropical resort. I’ve realized that life is supposed to be fun and interesting, and that I haven’t done anything really for my own selfish benefit for awhile. It’s like a midlife crisis during my freshman year.

As I was driving around running errands and what not I came upon this nothing that I need a good sound system in my new car. I thought about it and realized that I neither had the money or the knowledge of installing such a system. I told myself that the money used to buy a stereo system could be better put towards college. But then I realized that I would never want a loud, bone-rattling sub in my car after college. I know I am going to miss these college years, and maybe I’ll never leave them, just for the sake of learning and of having no worries that accompany adulthood. College students have it made whether we realize it or not. We are in between two phases of our lives. The first one being our childhood, when we are told what to do and how to do it constantly by “adults.” And our adult lives where we work a 9 – 5 job, have bills piling up, children, and stress. Ryan O’Connell from the Thought Catalog expresses this best in his essay “Things You’ll Miss About College.” I am going to miss my life that I have now, and I wish I could never grow up and live in these years for the rest of my life.

Right now, I would easily say that if I could choose what ages I would like to live over and over again, I would choose from the time I was born until my college graduation. Maybe as I get older I’ll just keep moving the latter date back more and more, and I truly hope so, but I don’t think that I will. Never again in my lifetime will life be this carefree and fun.

But I’ll try to make it that way.

And here is a video to get you thinking about life. By Luke Redowski and titled “Just Keep Going, You’ve Got Nothing to Lose” it’s a beautiful video interviewing people on New York City’s metro. Enjoy. 

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People Towels Design Contest – Deadline March 11th

The designers over at Inhabitat have decided to extend the deadline for their contest for PeopleTowels. The contest is called Stop the Paper Towels! and here is their press release:

Use your design skills to save trees and slash waste!

Every day, the United States generates over 3,000 tons of paper towel waste – and to produce every one of those tons, 17 trees are cut down and 20,000 gallons of water are consumed, contributing to deforestation, water pollution and global warming. It’s an ugly situation, but if you want to do something about it, now is your chance. Inhabitat is teaming up with PeopleTowels to challenge eco-minded
designers everywhere to enter our Stop the Paper Towels! Design Contest. We’re looking for clever, compelling green-themed graphic designs that can be printed onto a reusable cloth PeopleTowel to open people’s eyes to the situation and encourage the world to cut paper towel waste. The grand prize winner of this competition will receive $500 and 10% of royalties on every towel sold and the winning design will be published on Inhabitat.com and our future Inhabitat t-shirts! So what are you waiting for? Hit the big blue button below and get your design in it to win it!

I encourage all to enter this contest, especially since they extended the deadline to this Friday March 11th. I am actually currently working on a design myself, and although it’s not finished here’s a preview of the final version. Keep coming back for the final version, as I’ll edit this post and insert it once it’s done.

My Contest Entry

This is not a web-optimized version and the color is off but here is the design. Let me know what I could do to change it to make it better!

 

EDIT: I fixed the colors, had to switch the file to a rgb instead of the preset cymk. Also this is the final version that I sent in today, and just a reminder, the contest ends tomorrow! Best of luck!

Final Version

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Culturally Metaphorical

Culture – your surroundings that you are most familiar with and associate yourself with.

 

Graphics One Room

Me on Photoshop

Isaac's Tattoo

 

My culture is art. I spend so much time focused on art that it is my life. I grew up in a house that encouraged me to follow what I enjoyed and I’ve always enjoyed art.

 

Metaphor – a metaphor is a comparison between to objects that doesn’t use “like” or “as.” It also can be used to portray something indirectly.

 

A coffee cup symbolizes how I am always busy and always on the go. I need the caffeine to keep me going sometimes.

This image captures how mobile our society is and especially my culture. I'm always running around and without my phone I'd be really disorganized

Shoes are the ultimate example of moving around. And these shoes are different than any other and I'd like to think the art culture is like that.

Richard Garrison is an artist who uses color and shape to portray consumerism and different geographical locations he is familiar with. For example, he remembers a market and it is significant to him so he portray it in a painting. Here are some of his works.

 

09) by Richard Garrison

Circular Color Scheme (Target) by Richard Garrison-1

Circular Color Scheme (Target) by Richard Garrison

 

 

 

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I’m Posting Every Week in 2011

I’ve decided I want to blog more. Rather than just thinking about doing it, I’m starting right now.  I will be posting on this blog once a week for all of 2011.

I know it won’t be easy, but it might be fun, inspiring, awesome and wonderful. Therefore I’m promising to make use of The DailyPost, and the community of other bloggers with similiar goals, to help me along the way, including asking for help when I need it and encouraging others when I can.

If you already read my blog, I hope you’ll encourage me with comments and likes, and good will along the way.

And to start things off, I want you to meet Tara. She’s a beautiful women with a wonderful husband who made a video for her as a present. The video is all about their vacation to Portugal. There’s one thing you need to know about Tara first though, she died on January 4th, 2011. So her husband Mike put this video on youtube to show everyone what they had and how much she meant to him. Check it out for a touching experience.

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Dear ….

Saul posted this essay on his facebook account under notes. And I would just like to share in account under recent events. It is also worth noting that not only have Amazon stopped hosting Wikileaks, but PayPal has banned their account to stop donations to them. All due to pressure from the US government. What has the world come to? Thank God for the Swedish company that is hosting Wikileaks now, and is refusing to budge to any request/bullying/threats by the US or any other government. Cheers to the guy that is hunted by Interpol, on the US’s most wanted, and banned from ever going back to his home country of Australia; when all he wanted was for citizens to know what is going on in their government, good and bad, and is being labeled a terrorist.

Enjoy…….

By Saul Williams.

As the media sways between reporting on the huge disservice Julian Assange has done to government secrecy and posting the secrets, as Interpol tries it’s hardest to track him, as the American government places him on the top of their most wanted list, and as the barefoot bandit sits alone in a cell awaiting trial- I would like to take a moment to admit that these guys are pretty much heroes in my book… and I don’t think I’m alone. The hacker is the digital dignitary of the i-generation. These are the same guys I seek out to help me burn hard to find dvds onto my hardrive, the same guys who help me get music off of my ipod and into my itunes. They save me from waiting lists and long lines at the genius bar and overpriced software, they help me replace lost and mistakenly deleted files, and if I had the savvy they did, if I could prove that the government was lying about the number of civilian casualties during a seven year war that I thought was wrong from the start, if I could help make this “Age of Transparency” a bit more transparent, I would gladly play my part. I’m not an anarchist. I shy away from most labels, yet register as a democrat when it means I can vote for someone I believe in. I’ve got my own set of contradictions. I’m also a musician and know damn well that I wouldn’t like someone breaking into my computer and leaking my music before I decided it was time. But I have also celebrated the fact that I could now give away music for free by doing just that. And that freedom is the result of the hard work of people I do not know: programmers, engineers, fellow makers and creators, artists of the wire who dabble between worlds and understand codes where I see chaos. I respect them. Those that can capitalize on it and use it to their advantage are the pioneers of our time and those that would use it for the greater benefit of humanity, are the heroes.

Most of my heroes have been arrested. Many have stood on the wrong side of the law. And the law has not always stood for truth. The law has stood for control, dominance, and sometimes even manipulation. Law, at it’s best, has served to protect. Yet it has also served as a means of restricting growth and has not always seemed to change at the rate of human consciousness. Some laws have some catching up to do. So do some governments. So do some people. And I’m sure that in some regards I am also one of those people. If I was in the military and believed I was protecting and serving my country by fighting in a war and some hacker gave away the correspondents to our barracks or fire-power, I imagine, I’d be pretty upset. Yet, I find it hard to be upset when I think the best support for our troops would be sending them home and enlisting them in college. If you want to help rebuild the infrastructure of a country send engineers, send teachers, build hospital (no preachers).

But I digress. And who says I understand how to fight disingenuous governance, poverty or hate? I’m just saying I understand the importance of counterculture, of those who prefer boom over pop. Hardcore. Underground. The ones who dare to question and expose, who put their lives at risk, like soldiers fastened to their beliefs, but who fight alone or in small packs of the daring and courageous, Those who stand up and speak out even when the masses seem apathetically addicted to the status quo, which is probably good for business. And I’m not anti-good business. I’m just for new business models. And new fashion models, while you’re at it. They don’t have to be so skinny!

But the reason that I’m writing you Santa is because Kanye already rocked a red suit, I wanted to suggest a yellow cape, something with fringes, maybe a few feathers or ornaments. It’s not like you have any connection to Jesus so you might as well change your shit up and get on some newness. The way I see it, you’re another one of them do-gooders. You give kids something fun to dream about while we adults scramble the meaning of things. Things like the meaning of power, or the role of responsibility within it. Things like the power of the imagination and the beauty that can come about when you engage it. Anyway, it’s nice to have someone to write to sometimes and I thought you might like a letter that wasn’t asking you for anything. Do your thing, big guy, my son is counting on you.

My love to the Mrs.

xxx

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Christmas List

So in the spirit of the newly falling snow on WordPress, I’d like to let you in on my wishlist this year. The family has told me I have to choose something less than $100 dollars, and it can’t be cash (which i desperately need). I have come to two objects, each really unnecessary. But here they are:
Item # 1. Sony Ericsson LiveView phone remote.

Essentially a remote to your phone, which is in your pocket. Extremely lazy, I know. But who won’t ask questions about this thing. I can read texts, RSS feeds, accept or ignore calls, take control of your music, read twitter and facebook updates, and more with the power in the Android Market. What more could you want to do with your watch? It’s perfect. Especially when paired with my next item.

Item #2. Jabra Stone Bluetooth Headset.

It’s a beautiful looking bluetooth headset for my phone, that will pair nicely with the LiveView remote. I choose this headset purely on the looks, and I really hope the sound quality is great. Reviews rave about it but I’ve found you can’t always trust them.

There you have it. With the headset being $57 dollars without shipping and the watch being 60 euros, it’s within my limits. So mom. Dad. No pressure.

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